jacqueline's profile~ ஐ chin ஐ ~PhotosBlogListsMore ![]() | Help |
|
May 22 last day. 2mr will b the last day in school. My last day in sch where i get to hear small kids calling me ' Miss Tee', 'Teacher Tee', ' Cikgu Tee', '郑老师'...
I tink i will miss this kinda feeling. Miss the feeling when u r with kids. They are so so innocent. Though sometimes they made ur blood boil, but more of the times, they had made me smile. But in this world, everything will come to its end, be it good or bad things. So we'll juz have 2 accept it. ^^
Haha i still cant believe that i m a teacher for 5 mths. @o@ Ohya, ah keng poor thing a k a piggy sao, wish ur chicken pox will recover faster la, then june can go play... Wahaha~ May 04 my cute student~ Today. A friday. As usual my busiest day of the week except 4 monday. As usual i entered 1N. A terrible smell. I wonder wat or where did the smell come from. Then i asked my cute cute students, and they said is the burning smell from outside. To tink dat i blive them oh~So logically i asked them 2 shut down all the wondows.
Howeva, the intensity of the odour did not decrease afta 15 minutes. I then sensed stg was not rite. OH SHIT! Dat shit word suddenly flashed in my mind . I prayed hard in the heart 2 hope dat this shit would not happen on me. So i asked the 7-year-olds.... No respond. I guess they did not dare 2 own up oso gua. Afta 10 minutes.....
Still no culprit. So i had 2 go 2 the next class 2 ask my more senior colleague 2 help me. Haha old ginger is indeed more spicy than the young ones. He asked the students 2 sniff each other n if their partner got a weird smell, they must raise their hand. Brilliant trick, i must say. Coz u dun need 2 do things urself. At least almost all of my senior colleagues dun. ^^
Looking them sniffing at each other was indeed a rare n cute scene, though i cant stand the stench. Finally, there were 4 candidates dat were chosen by their classmates as the ppl with weird smell. 3 boys 1 gal.
Final round : The finalists now sniffed at each other n soon the culprit is caught. Is a cute little boy. The younger 1 of a pair of twins in my class. @-@
Though he is really cute, cuteness alone didn really manage 2 cover up the shitty smell. My stomach turned upside down rite away. No choice, i took a pair of pants n a plastic bag 2 ask him 2 clean himself up while i go contact his parents. No one picked up the call. Pissed off, i went bek 2 the toilet n nearly fainted on the scene. Okay, so he cleaned up n changed into the pair of pants dat i gave him n put the dirty 1 in the plastic bags. He is a really obedient boy. Now i onli rmb dat i asked him 2 clean up the lower part of the body. The whole shirt ( white shirt ) was stained in shit. Ok not whole but half. The lower half. The i oso noticed a few flies on the shirt. Then he was crying. Coz his classmates were laughing at him. And all the passer-bys. I was the onli 1 dat told him 'is ok', 'sayang sayang'.
He is still a small boy. So he actually wanted 2 hug me 4 manja i supposed. Haha scared me 2 hell. Dat didn happen luckily. I pushed him away n ran back 2 staffroom 2 get 1 more shirt 4 him.
Luckily got 1 student said he knew his year 6 brother. Then the big brother helped him 2 sort of clean up a bit, contacted his parents.
I must be a lucky gal. ^o^ Afta this incident, i noe n confirm dat i wont b a good mother, dat is if i will b one. And now onli i realised i dun have much time left in this school with these kids. I tink i will miss them dearly afta i left. I bet i will.
April 22 Cold. Yday, i had my IELTS in Subang Jaya. It's quite an interesting experience. The exam center is quite big, i tink adding up 2 halls, there were about 200 candidates sitting 4 the test. And there were all sorts of ppl sitting 4 the test. Got 1 fella with a really big hairstyle which the hair look like a tree. Then pregnant woman, pretty gals, hot babes. U can get all sorts of ppl there.
The test is not like wat we had normally. It was a 1-shot test, meaning u wont b having any breaks tru out all the papers. So if u need 2 ans the nature's call, u will have 2 wait until the test starts, coz u cannot go when they r collecting the ans sheet, distributing papers, etc. Then the toilet is juz inside the exam hall. So everything inside. The exam hall was vr vr cold. Though i was already wearing a long sleeve shirt n jeans, i was still shivering tru out the exam. The whole body was shivering like duno wat until the invigilator oso noticed dat. ^-^lll
Then immediately afta all the papers, i had my speaking test. I was the 1st 1 to go in. B4 dat, 2 stop the shivering, i went 2 the toilet 2 jump n try 2 warm myself up. Didn really succeed coz even when i was having the speaking test, I kept like fidgetting involuntarily...
Haha, afta when i got home, n check the email, i got the offer letter frm ntu, bioengineering. Few of my frens oso got the same course. Im not vr sure wat is dat course all about n do i really wan it or not. Got 2 weeks 2 consider...
But a bit relieved coz at least got uni wan me... Haha... Duno how r things going on 4 the uk application. Crossing my fingers dat they will too send me sum good news.
^o^ April 18 mc 2 days... 2 days ago, in a bm class. A student, cute year 2 boy, was covering one of his eyes which was quite reddish. He told me dat eye was 'injured', and i actually believe him n didn feel anything. When he passed 2 me anything i received as usual.
The next day, woke up in agony coz i cant open my eyes. Then when i looked into the mirror, oh gosh, im a rabbit. But no time 2 tell mummy, coz running late. Afta i reach sch at about 7am and start marking books, i found that something was not rite. I ask yen n keng n they ask me go home immediately. No choice. Went downstairs n told the pk.
The funny thing was that at 1st she did not let me go home. Juz ask me 2 look at the students less n everything will b fine. But afta she looked up n saw my eyes, she had second thoughts about that. Haha, so i was home again at 7.20am, keep dripping the eye drip into the eyes.
Thinking that in a few days time i will have my IELTS exam, i took out n sort of trying 2 prepare 4 it. But was forced 2 go clinic afta dat. Sien.
Second day i was beta, but scared will spread the rabbit disease 2 my cute students, i stayed at home. Luckily now the irritation completely gone... ^^
Then yen told me that we have 2 bring the students 2 the Archery Competition. But then again, problems come. Actually the problem came only an hour earlier b4. I was supposed 2 have the phone interview with shell 2mr aftanoon. Then fri aftanoon i can bring my students 2 the comp. But the person in charge juz called me n changed the interview date. Hmmm, What shud i do? Cant b have the interview while i bring my students out rite? If like dat, chances r i will lose my opportunity.
What shud i do? Still tinking that the idea of phone interview is fun. Nvr had this kinda experience b4. But there is definitely 1 good thing about this. You will only have 2 talk with a singular interviewer, instead of a plural number of interviewers.
Last sunday, i went bek 2 kampung. Grandpa's bday. We had lunch in restaurant 4 celebration b4 go to a bridal shop 4 a photograph session. It's kinda fun 2 c the expressions of the photographer, esp when my little nephew n niece (my cousins' kids) juz dun wan 2 look at the camera~ ^^ April 16 not happy. Im not happy. And getting more n more unhappy. A lot a lot of stuff going on.
Wat did i get myself into? A big dung of shit. April 09 only hope Title :Mandy Moore - Only Hope
There's a song that's inside of my soul.
It's the one that I've tried to write over and over again I'm awake in the infinite cold. But you sing to me over and over and over again. So, I lay my head back down. And I lift my hands and pray To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours I know now you're my only hope. Sing to me the song of the stars. Of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again. When it feels like my dreams are so far Sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again. So I lay my head back down. And I lift my hands and pray To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours I know now, you're my only hope. I give you my destiny. I'm giving you all of me. I want your symphony, singing in all that I am At the top of my lungs, I'm giving it back. So I lay my head back down. And I lift my hands and pray To be only yours, I pray, to be only yours I pray, to be only yours I know now you're my only hope. hmmmmm, hmmmmm, oooooh. It's a soundtrack from ' A Walk to Remember'.
It's a typical love story, with a quite abrupt ending of the lead actress's death. Cancer. All in all, it's not bad at all 2 watch this kinda movie when u feel really bored or have nothing 2 do.
I juz watched it. So im bored. April 07 wah finally exit the 'hot' mode~ These few days were vr vr warm, the floor in my room felt jz as hot, like the baking pan juz out of the oven. This puts off the idea of sleeping on the floor instead of on my bed. To top it all, the air con in my room is spoilt 4 one month. Daddy said it was hopeless n wuld replace it with a new 1. Hmmm, where isit??! Luckily juz now rained vr heavily ... Hehe... Juz renewed my driving license yday~ No more P stickers oh... Finally.
Im so so bored. Cant seem to finish marking the assignments nor settle wat i wan to teach for the next week.
2day finally sat down and listen 2 the IELTS listening test. Wah, it's not the least as easy as i've been told. The biggest problem is that the whole thing is onli played once. And u will hv 2 look at the questions, listen 2 the conversation and write down the answers at the same time. Cham lo. I juz cant seemed 2 focus. Die lo... Only 2 more weeks b4 the exam.
I hope and pray that all my buddies, sisters and frens will all get the path dat they want to the future they dream. Praying really hard here~ April 04 pre-sports day 2day's sport practices are actually the 3rd day of all. We the teachers r required 2 choose those students which can represent their house for each event. 2day is the year 5 students' turn 2 b chosen.
7.30am when i rushed down 2 the place where we were supposed 2 assemble, i had a shocked. Shocked because the number of students for 2day's programmes had doubled. Die. N im the only teacher in charge 4 the team. ( actually there was another teacher, but she was wearing long skirts n high heels, so... )
The events started. 1st event for my team (about 60-80 students) was 'broad jump' or 'long jump'. Problems had started when we saw the place they were supposed 2 jump. Er all muddy n slippery. So afta much struggling n change of venue, they started 2 jump 1 by 1.
2nd problem had came along when quite a number of the students were quite a good jumper. So i had 2 set my expectation higher. And ask the 'not-so-bad' jumpers 2 jump once more 2 let me choose again ( i can onli choose the best 3 ). After tremendous efforts n shoutings n threatenings, we were done 4 the 1st event. ( it was onli the 1st) I felt like dying. N was ravenous.
Hmmm since i cant juz dump my students bhind n go 4 a break, i might as well carry on with the 2nd 1. 100 M sprint. 7 by 7 they ran. When i saw them running, i cant control myself n followed the crowd 2 cheer 4 them as well without realising my voice was becoming more n more coarse. Gone were the days when i was the runner n the crowd.
3rd station, the lontar peluru ( wats lontar peluru in eng?). Then happened sth damn horrible, a student was walking tru dat track, when one of my students actually threw out the metal ball without realising dat he was there( i was bside him). So the metal ball literrally flew across him from above. Haha this sent the boy-student start cursing the gal who threw the ball non-stop.
Last station, the high jump section. There were other teams occupying the area so we had 2 wait 4 quite a long time. It really surprised me that most of the high jumpers(i mean good high jumpers) r not tall. Short actually. The shortest 1 was actually the 1 who set the highest record.
Then when i was standing juz bside the jumping pillar, where u put a rod horizontally on it ( mark the word horizon), then suddenly 1 student jump across and bang the rod n caused the rod 2 flew towards me, and it hit me rite on my elbow. An intense pain sensation overwhelmed me. My elbow actually felt numb. Sigh.
Afta a while we continued again. This time i chose 2 stand behind the cushion beds. Okay, there was this gal ( kinda plump and mayb taller than me) run towards the rod n try 2 jump across it. She nearly passed but the rod fell 2 the ground anyway. But thats not the point (duh~), then duno y, maybe her momentum was huge, she didn land on the cushion bed as expected. Instead, i became her bed. She actually bang me Down, with my spine touching the ground 1st n hers on my lap. At that time i really cannot stand up on my own n i tink it was my students who helped me up.
Duno how many times did i injured my spine but now my whole body is numb with pain. The event had 2 go on nevertheless so i juz bite my lips n carry on 2 test the students on different heights.
These programmes were supposed 2 end at 8.50am. But I finished everything on 9.40am with a 100 plus on my left hand, curry puff in my mouth and red pen on my right hand, marking english grammar... ^o^ April 03 Life is good. Looks like i had abandoned my blog for a real long time. For i duno how 2 express myself. And there's no good and cute things 2 be remembered.
2day duno y suddenly have the right feeling and mood to blog. Maybe im bored now n everybody else is not. Duh. Hmm but hapi coz the trip to kk has finalised and confirmed~ Wahaha... Finally. Frankly i tot maybe this time we cant go 2 kk d coz of the air ticket thing. But still, we, actually cheo, managed 2 settled it. Our 8 ppl trip is set. Im really looking forward 2 it and hope that no interviews or whatsoever will clash with it.
2day i have my new timetable. After 2 mths, i will b no longer a teacher. I tink when the time to leave this sch this job has come, maybe i will miss it. Badly. Already used 2 the environment... The kids. Everything.
When i look back 2 my previous blogs, i found dat im really childish n narrow minded. So i have the tot of erasing all the entries. But i didn. Bu she de . No matter how childish or how stupid i was, it was Me. ^ - ^
September 08 IVY 生日!妹妹生日! Hmmm... 2day is a blog-muz day. V's birthday of coz~
Damn happy coz i finally wait until 12 am n send her bday msg. Hmmm b4 this i can nvr get up at 12 n send a bday msg. Even C's bday i oso overslept by 5 hours... Haha thou he didn blame me~ But still will think dat im useless. haha...
These days i have hold tight to the phrase 'man proposes, god disposes' ar... It's very very very true. Come to tink about it, it's been a month since dat day. Dat dreadful day. Hope we can 4get it n get tru it.
Exam left half a week... Hmmm, so far i tink i did pretty well, i mean at least dat is wat I think. Dun dare to tink wat result i'll get. Haha at least 4 math i didn pass up blank paper n can prove quite a few q, so 4 me dats very good d lo. Haha dat day during math exam then quite boring then suddenly laugh out loud, fortunately no 1 notice me, everybody is busy integrating the ln x by parts gua, Haha i cant do dat q thou. Suddenly tot of kangaroo, then i draw a kangaroo face on the paper lo. Haha weird enuf afta dat stupid act, i actually can solve the q. Haha power leh~
Cant believe 2mr oso got sch! Fed up. Haha laz sat my class only got about 7 ppl. Wonder about 2mr's attendance. I really dun feel like going, prefer to go have breakfaz with mummy... Long long time nvr do dat d... Sigh~
2day chem tuition interrupted by the office gal. Then wasted 15 min. Teacher said next week will start the class 15 min earlier. Walao. Dat means if i change back to thurs class, im bhind time by 15 min lo. Lame but im quite pekceh. Maybe next week oso will go fri class ba~
2day when i step into the class got a bit shock lo. Coz realli long long time nvr c eric, wuen they all. They all looked vr vr tired, esp wuen. Was told dat he had a poor night, then oso duno how to cheer him up~ Cheer up ya!
Hmmm, this year mp dun need 2 wear dress d, coz is a pool side lunch i tink. Shorts n singlets suits more. But i felt quite guilty 4 all those frens dat had bought their dress. Luckily i havent but it coz im kinda laz minute gal~ Haha...
^-^ Really happy 2 day. Excited 4 the whole day duno over wat.... Juz happy la coz exam then dun need attend all math class~ Really cant figure out why he likes math so much, emm..... 把它当好朋友咯。
U noe what happened 10 min ago? Duno y on the staircase got 1 injured pigeon! Wah, scare the hell out of me!
Haha... Continue to be excited....我送你离开,千里之外,你无声黑白。。。
沉默年代,或许不该,太遥远的相爱。。。哈哈。。。
September 03 考试了。。 哈哈终于也是要考试了啊。。。 First subject is bio... Then econ, then math then p.a.... then is vicky's birthday. Oh ya before that is elaine's bday. Hm... Kinda planing wat small surprise to give my buddy... But i tink maybe only out 4 a meal lo. Coz now is war period. Yesterday was also a school day. Duh~ Didnt really study . Instead we were planning bout where to go after stpm. Haha we tink too much lah.
But all discussion turn out to be nought, coz our time juz dun match. Some frens r only available in dec. But the thing is dec i vr vr busy n most probably got some family plan. Dats y. Actually to me, i will be very happy if me n my gang juz go 2 a place to relax or sth. Juz we all 2gether i'll be very happy n contented d . Hmmm i oso wish dat dec i have more time, coz if we only go in jan, maybe lit K cant make it...Of coz i will like to have his company very very much lo~ Hehe...
Hmmm, our sch has a new principal now, n she is kinda vr vr vr vr strict lo... So cannot keep myself away from sch... Haha.
Is a relationship btw a teacher n a student possible? Hmm, vr vr funny, isnt it? Sometimes i tink maybe is not possible. Jz some illusion n confusion involved i supposed.
Yesterday a fren called me. Long long time didnt contact d, haha hardly can recognise his voice. Then he told me a lot a lot of example of guys two-timing. Is this some kind of discouragement? Hmm, but the thing is im no longer in the two-timing thingy wat. Wat im encountering n facing now doesnt tally with all those that he told me wat. Haiyo~~
Lily told me, as a gal, u have to alwaz be optimistic, confident, n be perservere in order 2 win a guy's heart. But sometimes,..... no a lot of time to be specific, u cant control urself, can u?
Hmmm, kinda glad dat now i feel much much beta d... Thz to k6197 of coz~ Let nature take its course. Let Fate decides. Tink i said all these crap umpteen times to myself d. Whatever la~~ Wahaha...
我也要向袋鼠学学,学着要变的潇洒一点。。。~不过还是会想钻进袋子里啊。。。哈哈。。。~ August 22 海豚 昨晚差不多十二点多到家。。。嗯,昨晚,吃东西。看他。聊天。看他。听歌。看他。
他好像都不开心,毕竟他是完美主义者。看着他在发信息,心里明白了一半。原来对他来说,诉苦的对象,不是我。
不小心看到他电话的鹿,她叫他不要不开心。
我,是不是该放手了呢?
从他的身上,找不到任何继续下去的理由。放手,会痛。不放手,也痛。我到底该怎么办???
今天看到v一定要好好的靠靠她。
是你的,就一定是你的。注定的,怎么都甩不掉。 August 21 2183rd day of holiday.
Means i have wasted 2 days. No no. muz include today, making it 3 days.
Later i have 2 mpS... Moral talk n pbsm. No comment. I have learnt that the smartest thing in the world is not to share ur thoughts, but to hide it. Im quite looking 4ward to 2nite's dinner.... Shud be fun i tink. Last two days r the longest day ever... Waiting for sum1 can be so tiring n torturing...
Busy with car, dats the reason y i had to wait. Though i duno him long enough to noe wats he is tinking about, i dun tink dat was really the case. Right? Coz he is never like dat be4 dat. I always thought, once the barrier is collapsed, there should be no more problem btw us. But maybe i was not entirely rite afterall. I dun like all these stupid damn tots haunting me. n killing me slowly.
All of them got their dress d. Except me. They say im being too choosy. Haha... Looks like i too muz settle it asap. Long long time didn relax like today, sitting in front of the comp aimlessly and type some crap of my heart. Duh. But is kinda a good feeling. I duno y must spend all the time munching books? It's boring n will it Really help? I m not dat kind study person... Haha, that explains y i juz failed my math.
Forecast result. Very important i see. Hope i wont ruined it. But it's hard. Haha.
I alwaz like to ask myself, wats the most touching n romantic thing in the world... N my ans will nvr change... That is can slowly becum old man n old woman with the man i love. Haha another crap. Another 10 minutes i muz go d. In this 10 min wat shud i do?
After this 3 months, nothing will be the same again. Even if in these 3 months, everything is changing.... Feel so so helpless. Wish nothing will change.
Tot of meteor garden, haha i still rmb dat time everybody is crazy bout dat series. Now i wish watch it again. Like the way the man loves the woman.
Chao~ July 31 waiting... Haha kinda bored now... waiting for my songs to be downloaded... 2day i heard a news. A shocking 1... I heard few of my frens, though i not sure r who, gave 1 'rotten' banana skin with words like ‘muak' to a junior at Canteen! Can u actually believe it. Okay, my fren is not a male to make it worse.
I was like, wth when i heard this. No comment but i think all lower sixes will label all the upp 6 gals as 'desperate housewives'... duh~
2day went to redbox to sing. havent sing 4 quite long time ady. With my k6197 gang of coz! haha... Sinky's 'love' recovered ady, cost her a bomb though. Becky 2day is all Japan! Haha, i tink is a bit hip hop, hmm...cannot talk bad bout her, she juz changed her nickname 4 me... to a very nice 1... wahaha... Vicky as usual lo... Hehe she is so so important to me esp when im cold... She is my source of heat... 2day sang quite a lot of old songs and it felt like as if we r getting older and older... Cant blif im 2 mths away from 19... Old d.
Jz now on9 met shi xiong, didn noe dat he is back, hmmm, i tink he got tell me.... when i was sleeping gua... Haha he so good lo, holiday now, how come everybody is holiday now, haih i wish me too in holiday, Foreva!
Yay.....
Haha nvm la, only 100 days 2 go b4 i meet my doom n go 2 heaven! I shud be vr vr hardworking by now, but kinda no mood.... Looks like muz pull up socks a bit or else i duno wat alphabet will appear on my result slip...
Suddenly crossed my mind... What is a third party? What if the guy doesnt have any feelings to his gf ? Is the other gal labelled the third party or simply, vixen? Is it possible for a guy to like 2 person at a time? N what shud the actual gf feel when she noes all? Humans, being complex, tend to make things even more complex than it actually is. And when they cannot make a decision, they'll say, let nature take its course. Lame.
When can i not be a prefect? Really fed up. Hope this week is the last week of duty n i can have all my time back. This weekend got Leo induction dinner, formal wear... But wat to wear? Whateva la. Who cares. Haha hope we can have lots of fun like last time. What is Lions? Lions r a creature that is si2 bei3 garang gou4 eh3 ga3 rang2!!!! ( very fierce n can bite ppl) HAHA laugh till my head off!
Here's something interesting. Heard of STRESSED rite? In fact, all of us are STRESSED. STRESSED is actually the inversion of DESSERTS... haha amazing rite? So when we face stress in life, maybe we shud look at it at another perspective, n all that will become desserts of our lives! ^-^ 七月。 七月的最后一天了噢。。。剩下三个月了啦。。。整个七月对我来说很特别。
不知道自己那样子做是对是错,但我不后悔。最近真得很累,也好像一直生病,可是好开心噢!!真得好喜欢他。。喜欢他紧张我的样子,喜欢他为了配合我玩些朝无聊的游戏让我笑到不行。。。 喜欢他经过我后偷偷的瞄我一眼,喜欢他睡前一定发给我的信息。
那天 K6197 一起去吃东西,哈哈那里的东西还不错吃。。羊扒超大份的,好彩我们都是share share 的。。四个人在那都能玩到疯掉,笑到六粒腹肌都出来!觉得很幸福。。。我好像很容易满足,越大越觉得我就是那样啊。中学读了那么多年,为了什么?
有了他,有了她们,推翻了所有我以前想要存在的理由。我不希望会有什么改变。现在的一切是那么的完美啊!自己对自己的承诺:要保护保护你的人。。 May 27 放假一下子了。。。哈哈。。。怎样都还是熬到放假了。。。嘿嘿。。。
不过很糟糕咯。考试一团糟。爸妈准备把我剁碎碎。。
这几天除了忍还是忍。
忍耐想念一个人的感受。
想他而不告诉他。。
他说他最近好忙。除了告诉我他忙,就是对不起。
我也除了相信他,只能等。
难道我就不忙吗?脑都不能想了。只想着只要我不要增加他的负担就好。
不是相装伟大,而是不懂面对。觉得他好不真哦,都好像不会是我的。
下星期回去看萤火虫。。。他曾经告诉我在那儿可以看到一整棵树的萤火虫,还蛮期待。
不过我更想见见他。我快要连他的背影都忘了。。。。
我好想你,小熊。 April 17 怀疑我不是属兔的!
书上是这样写的,属兔的今年是和太岁合年,简直就是放屁!
U wont be believing how many unfortunate events i had this year!!! Walao~!
Let me recap the most recent 1: Yesterday i had to go to town for some stuff of PBSMM... Nobody fetch so take stupid public bus lo.... Then i put in Rm2.40 in the 'money box', then the stupid bus driver told me dat is not enuf... ask me to put rm 0.50 more. He was quite fierce, so although i curse him in my heart, i open my bag to take out my purse to take the 50 cents lo...
Before i was in the bus, i was taking a call, so when the bus came, i juz simply put my handphone in my bag... So back to the 50 cents. After i paid him an extra 50 cents, i find a spot 4 me to stand lo.... Mark that the bus was congested with lots of people, mostly those indon or foreign workers that maybe only have sunday as holiday. Then i didn notice anything worng, then after 1 bus stop, i realise dat my hp was in my bag, so decided to take it out.... THEN GONE! NOthing!!!
The handphone was gone juz like dat! Damn... Then my mind tells me dat i shud go borrow a phone n call my num... then i did. My phone was off. Fuck! Then i shouted out... Then i dashed out n ask the driver whether got c anyone touching my bag or not coz the only time dat i open my bag is when i take out the money....
Out of my concern, he shouted at me! He said i muz have left it at the bus stop!!!!!! N ask me to get off the bus to go find my stuff.... Damn! What kinda of attitude is dat! I was so so so panic n angry....
I noe that i can never get my handphone back ady. Overwhelmed by sadness n disappointment towards malaysia's service system, i got off the bus n took a cab home.
Then cry 4 vr vr long, until my mum n dad said they'll buy w800i for me.... It's not the phone dat i sad so much actually, is all my stuff inside the phone... All the contacts dat i took quite a lot of effort to get it back. Now all lost again... I can only remember a few number, like doi, liping, pei wen, ivy,wenying, daniel. I tink dats all leh... Haha, i even 4get shen's handphone number....
Pek ceh! Dat's not the only incident... I lost Rm 100, A calculator, n lots of smal smal stuff in this month...Ya, no doubt about it, all in 1 month...
Then 2day wake up migraine, so might as well stay at home n sleep.... Haha, think later ivy sure niao3 me.
Vbear, i miss u........ Your present still with me leh... That day i pass by there, then tot of u... juz like dat day the shop was closed... juz like dat day a lot of 'ur' bus pass by.... Really cant bear u leave me that far... sob sob... tink u r still very busy now, as u always do... Add oil ya!
雨和天空也有相爱的可能。。。。。。。。 January 02 New Year~
Long long time didn update my blog ady. Too lazy, wat to do? Haha... Haih S2 so so so far away... Fast fast come back oh~! Haha im waiting 4 my snow...
2mr school will start again. So? So i'll have to wake up early again... So i'll face exams again... Waiting 4 my doom loR. Aiyo, my gd fren she dropped econ, setting me thinking whether i shud do the same thing or not. Im quite scared actually, i dun think i can cope with all dat... Aiya, shud have choose art stream... Er, or beta not.
2day i nearly ruin the insects specimens dat i spent so so much time in... Though it's not ruined, i tink it looked rather bad now, really hope my team mates will forgive me... Too blur.
2mr will have 2 go 2 sch. I find this tot is quite scareful. Terrifying in fact. Cham. One word to tell all. November 15 plain day it is. 2day senior told me a bad news. About stpm stuff. . . . . Guess we have 2 depend on ourselves afterall. Im bored. Nothing special or big happen in my life recently. It's supposed 2 b a good thing. But i dun think dat way. It juz kinda. . . too plain 4 me.
What's gotten into me? I was stunned by myself, having sleepless nights 4 dat discovery. Perhaps, in a way, my heart doesnt want 2 deceive anyone anymore... myself inclusive. But too late. Too damn late. Dky is too far away from me, an ocean surrounding it, insulating it from me. Kinda sad huh? But i tink is wat i deserved. Ya, i deserved it.
2day, when i was idling alone in shopping mall, i came across a card. When i saw it, i saw dky. Impulsively driven, i bought it. Bought it 4 wat??? Dun tink i'll gv it 2 him though. How i wish i can see tru all these, then i wont b bringing troubles 2 dky. I m so so stupid.
I feel like giving up. Wat gd result? I dun wish 2 care 4 dat anymore. So much for motivating myself 2 study, telling myself this is the last chance. But i noe this chance will be ruined sumhow. Really wan 2 gv up. I dun wan 2 hang on anymore.
U noe, i caught a caterpillar, 2 weeks ago. . I put it in a bottle, with some leaves which it ate it all. Then it turned into a pupa. I was so amazed by how it shook its head off n form a moderately sized pupa. After about a week, 1 morning, i woke up 2 see dat inside dat bottle, there's a relatively big butterfly. I was so so so happy. . . . . As if it was my baby.
It was beautiful, really.
But i have 2 kill it 2 make it an insect sample. Mummy helped me 2 transfer dat butterfly into another bottle dat has a cotton dipped in formalin in it. Dat butterfly fly excitedly at 1st in dat bottle. Then it rested on the bottom of the bottle. It started 2 swing rite n left, obviously it's dizzy. Its breathing rate began 2 be slower. . . . . . n slower. . . . .
Until it stops. I cried. I was so sad. How could i kill such a cute thingy?
I tink maybe my heart is not hard enuf. Im freaking out. I dun dare 2 touch the 'bodies' of those insects. Im not cut out 2 be a killer i tink. A doctor oso. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .
|
|
|